a fine line... need your thoughts, people...

k folks, there are only a few loyal readers to this blog, but the majority of you are happily married people that i respect and i admire your relationships. yes, it appears ive departed from my originally intended "superficial blog"-ness. but whatever. its on my mind. and ya, sometimes its pointless and silly to talk and discuss too much about relationships and dating and "right-ness", and im sure when i meet "the right one" as everyone calls him, this will all be a moo point (yes thats right, it will be a cow's opinion :), but i just wanna throw this out and see what ya'll think. so, my recent dating intrigues have caused me to think. and i had a few epiphanies on my saturday morning run. ill share one. so it seems that very often, there is a very fine line between completely right for you and totally wrong for you. sounds absurd, but think about it. and, as my wise sis said (i think? didnt you say this part dana, or was it me? well, whatever) someone said that this rightness or wrongness can largely depend on what you choose to put up with or ignore. i have been interested in guys and trying to get to know them and overlooking some things that i wasnt too keen on cuz thats what we are supposed to do, right? cuz no one is perfect. so i focused on the good. but then as soon as its not working out or we break it off or just, whatever, well...suddenly those negative things combine and assault me with all their force and i get really and truly completely annoyed and disgusted with these guys. i know i know, sounds like bitterness because the relationship didnt work out. no. its not like an "i hate you cuz im all scorned and whatnot" kind of thing. i definitely dont hate them. i just am very aggrivated and have no desire to spend time with them. and just a few days ago i was totally into getting to know them and enjoying every moment with them. when considering them and some aspects of their personalities, id think, well thats very opposite of me, but that could be just what i need to even me out or make me better or whatever. like i said, i know yall are gonna say im overthinking this and when i find the guy, i wont have to consider all this crap. but i really dont know about that. im 29 people. ive dated a lot of different guys. and i just dont know if itll fall into place easily for me. anywho, so if you feel like giving me some help or your thoughts on this one, id love to hear/read it. i feel like this is a downer blog. this isnt a downer people, i just find it a fascinating concept. nothing really fun or blog worthy has happened lately other than dating haps/mishaps, so this is all i got folks. oh, and i bought an amazing state of the art GPS watch thing to track my pace and distance and all kinds of crap while running. and then i did a run with it and, well, it was just overkill for what i needed. and the one function i really needed to be accurate (pace) was not really. so it didnt do me a ton of good. so i took it back. which is not a very natalie thing to do. but i feel much better since i did. ill stick with my awesome, cheaper sports watch/heart rate moniter. its served me very well. sometimes, we really dont need new things that we really want to need. that goes for the google phone too. i want it bad. but im stickin with my dash. it loves me and i love it. the new down alternative pillows i bought at costco, however, have been a 100% awesome buy that i am grateful for every time i lay my head down.

why i love stina and shawn

i love old friends. friends that can pop in whenever they are in town and its awesome from the first second you see their faces until you hug them goodbye. you enjoy every catching up moment and it feels like they never left. i love it. stina and shawn are two such friends. and maybe now that im dedicating a whole post to them, they will have the guts to comment on here and not be blog stalkers :). heres why i love these people. i know i can count on shawn to wear flip flops, cargo shorts, and his sweatshirt , regardless of the weather. and i can count on stina to wear something cute and stylish and to have rad, unique hair that i would not like on ANYONE else but her. i know i can count on them to be non traditional, but not in a "look at how not traditional we are" kind of way, but just in a regular, this is who we are and what we do, cuz its what we want to do, take it or leave it kind of way. i love that they didnt stand up in the clark ward when their engagement was announced, even under pressure from the pulpit. i love that stina is amazing and made me feel like maybe i actually could give birth to my kids with no epidural (yes, all my sisters and sisters in law, i know you are laughing hard right now). i love that they make delicious food from natural ingredients and that stina uses not one, not two, but MULTIPLE cookbooks already. i still think about the amazing pizza you made me on a regular basis, stina. i love the memories of when they were here and how i was third wheeling it with them on their first sorta date thingy. i also love thinking about how delicious those amazing cupcakes were at their reception. i love people that are easy to hang out with and love. they are chill, relaxed, but extremely entertaining. shawn is the most mellow human ever born and stina definitely has the sass and energy to balance him out perfectly. its so easy to laugh and have fun with shawn and stina. its a given. and their 2 month old adorable baby boy, ira, is definitely a way cuter than average 2 month old. i wasnt just saying that you guys. he really is adorable. which is a relief because we all hate lying to the parents of ugly babies. so keep the cute ones coming, you two, cuz i dont ever want to have to lie to you! ok, well i have to go now. oh and to anyone other dear friends who read this, i love you too, and your day will come, with your very own blog post. today is just a very thankful for stina and shawn day.