Thursday, February 26, 2009

a fine line... need your thoughts, people...

k folks, there are only a few loyal readers to this blog, but the majority of you are happily married people that i respect and i admire your relationships. yes, it appears ive departed from my originally intended "superficial blog"-ness. but whatever. its on my mind. and ya, sometimes its pointless and silly to talk and discuss too much about relationships and dating and "right-ness", and im sure when i meet "the right one" as everyone calls him, this will all be a moo point (yes thats right, it will be a cow's opinion :), but i just wanna throw this out and see what ya'll think. so, my recent dating intrigues have caused me to think. and i had a few epiphanies on my saturday morning run. ill share one. so it seems that very often, there is a very fine line between completely right for you and totally wrong for you. sounds absurd, but think about it. and, as my wise sis said (i think? didnt you say this part dana, or was it me? well, whatever) someone said that this rightness or wrongness can largely depend on what you choose to put up with or ignore. i have been interested in guys and trying to get to know them and overlooking some things that i wasnt too keen on cuz thats what we are supposed to do, right? cuz no one is perfect. so i focused on the good. but then as soon as its not working out or we break it off or just, whatever, well...suddenly those negative things combine and assault me with all their force and i get really and truly completely annoyed and disgusted with these guys. i know i know, sounds like bitterness because the relationship didnt work out. no. its not like an "i hate you cuz im all scorned and whatnot" kind of thing. i definitely dont hate them. i just am very aggrivated and have no desire to spend time with them. and just a few days ago i was totally into getting to know them and enjoying every moment with them. when considering them and some aspects of their personalities, id think, well thats very opposite of me, but that could be just what i need to even me out or make me better or whatever. like i said, i know yall are gonna say im overthinking this and when i find the guy, i wont have to consider all this crap. but i really dont know about that. im 29 people. ive dated a lot of different guys. and i just dont know if itll fall into place easily for me. anywho, so if you feel like giving me some help or your thoughts on this one, id love to hear/read it. i feel like this is a downer blog. this isnt a downer people, i just find it a fascinating concept. nothing really fun or blog worthy has happened lately other than dating haps/mishaps, so this is all i got folks. oh, and i bought an amazing state of the art GPS watch thing to track my pace and distance and all kinds of crap while running. and then i did a run with it and, well, it was just overkill for what i needed. and the one function i really needed to be accurate (pace) was not really. so it didnt do me a ton of good. so i took it back. which is not a very natalie thing to do. but i feel much better since i did. ill stick with my awesome, cheaper sports watch/heart rate moniter. its served me very well. sometimes, we really dont need new things that we really want to need. that goes for the google phone too. i want it bad. but im stickin with my dash. it loves me and i love it. the new down alternative pillows i bought at costco, however, have been a 100% awesome buy that i am grateful for every time i lay my head down.

5 comments:

annebabe said...

wowza! so much i want to say and therefore, check your facebook inbox. :) feel free to depart from blogger superficialness (sp?) anytime. real life is meatier. :)

Dez said...

I don't think its bad to find faults. I mean come on your gonna have to deal with it for the rest of your life. I mean is it something you can ignore like the fact the toilet seat is left up, okie doke, or is it something major like too many nose hairs or a really bizarre family. Be somewhat picky but willing to over look things too. LOL. This is a dumb comment. Its late. Any who I have a brother in law I think you should give a whirl. You are probably sick of people setting you up but look him up on face book or something and see what you think. His name is Todd Sorenson. You two would have fun. He is 31, accountant, funny, related to me:) Chat soon.

Dana said...

You already know my thoughts on this one. I wish I could look in your inbox though and see what anne's thoughts are. OH, and you should date Todd Sorenson, he sounds nice. :)

Melissa Bitton said...

I think you are on track and not crazy! I've definately felt in a "euphoric" state when dating guys and then after the breakup....BAM! They suck! I do think we overlook thigs and we should. It's seems to me that finding your mate (sounds like animals!) happens when both of you are capable of overlooking things and then actually overlook them.

I hear lots of divorced people say "I knew I never should have married them" but I think this is a lie. At one point in time, they were able to overlook flaws and worked very hard to do so. But, somehow they gave up and that made them fall "out of love."

You can't make someone else put of with your crazies, but I think love happens when that is overshadowed by sincere affection and committment and desire to be with someone.

Plus, what kind of watch do you have. I love those GPS watch things, but they are so freakin expensive and you say it wasn't that helpful?

all about the girls said...

Love is awesome, but it is not everything! You definitely have to be picky and find someone that is willing to work as hard as you are on the days (or years) that are just not as easy to be twitterpated! (Thanks Bambi!) Whoever said all you need is love is a liar, because all the love in the world will not cure someone of their own self.